Advice to the Bright and Young
by Danielle Fong
An article on one bright young man, Moshe, recently appeared on Hacker News. For a long time I’ve been meaning to write about the subject, and what was to be a simple comment morphed into this essay.
The story of educational acceleration is an old one. Curious, bright children learn and explore rapidly on their own, and interactively with their parents. The world is like a playground for the growing mind. The child takes in everything. Eventually, these children find themselves mired in school’s morass. There are new adventures: more kids, older kids, a new environment. Yet kept in one place, individual attention of parents replaced by lectures from often overtaxed and uninterested teachers, their minds are left to go fallow. While some of school is new, and quite enjoyable, boredom and obedience, for the curious child, is torturous, a fact which lucky children and mindful parents come to confront.
Alternatives appear: skipping grades, dropping out, home-schooling, gifted programs, science fairs, participating in the popularity game, sports, focusing on musical or athletic achievement, playing hookie, becoming jaded.
After entering junior high I pretty much stopped responding to the world at large. Life rapidly degenerated. I quickly dropped out, and luckily my parents didn’t make me go back. At that time both of my parents were very busy with work, and so homeschooling couldn’t work for long. We discovered that college was much cheaper than private school, which didn’t seem very good anyway. We argued my way in.
I was given a huge amount of freedom. Like Moshe’s parents, and like many others, mine urged me to slow down — advice I tried to take, though my eyes were always bigger than my appetite. I was amongst a culture that respected me for good reasons. I shared so much more than with my age peers. I was learning so much. A growth spurt hid my relative youth — soon nobody suspected I was so young. I truly enjoyed my time in college. Nothing brightens a teenager’s world more than responsibility, respect, and freedom.
There are dangers. Early fame is a minefield, for many reasons, in many fields. I think it’s hard for most people to live up to past successes, the ‘promise’ they had shown. But there are worse dangers. Two extremes haunt the gifted:
It is easy to feel that what one has achieved is in some sense artificial. That one has been built up out of nothing — that really, respect is in a large part undeserved. ‘Imposter syndrome’ is a common term for this feeling. People can feel themselves to profoundly wanting. Phony. But this is by no means exclusive to the academically accelerated. It follows early achievement wherever it can be found.
Alternatively, one can fall into a trap of picking activities on the basis of their impressiveness. One can miss out on more intellectually simulating, enjoyable, and valuable things in life, all in order to participate in a vapid achievement contest. One strives to be the youngest smartest fastest most daring most broadly educated highest iq’d phd’d nobel prized ivy leagued quantum genius prodigy in the world ever.
This happens way too often. And it affects all of us. One can feel so small next to the prominent. Long shadows can reach deep into other’s egos. Perhaps worse, all of us have felt a need to be great at times. It can become overpowering.
It’s a trait that is unfortunately encouraged by some parents who should know better. It’s certainly encouraged by society at large. The wiser guardians of bright kids sometimes say that raising them is like having to constantly pull on the brakes. They must. The world keeps pushing them.
One of the saddest things is that it’s all futile anyway. Inevitably, you grow up. Prodigies become ex-prodigies. This is lost on too many people.
Beyond questions of ego and achievement, there’s another problem with acceleration. Those who advance so quickly do so by letting delight pull them. One falls in love with the rhythm of important, challenging work, with the excitement, with ideas, and with the culture of the mind.
But you can’t live life like this forever. One must learn other lessons while growing up. At some point, we all wish for a pause button. We all need time to pull our identities together. We all need time to relax, and there is much that we need that cannot be provided by an overscheduled life. It is far too easy, with successes behind you, with fame around you, with drive and courage within you, and with a love of your work pulling you, to let that pause button go, and to refrain from asking for respite before hitting rock bottom. I know. It happened to me.
It felt like the world was ending. I felt like I was abandoning my love and my duty. I felt incredibly selfish. And I was exhausted.
It was not so bad, it turns out. My life rallied. It is difficult to explain how much better I feel. And surprisingly, taking a break, and taking time to reset myself personally, has even started to improve my work. Much of that many be a function of happiness. But part of this may help even the happiest of people. Pressure to do great things can rush life. It is so hard to pursue daring thoughts in a life too hurried.
So my advice to Moshe, and anyone who finds a glimmer of recognition in these words: stay curious, let your love of something pull you, but do not hastily give all of yourself and find there is nothing left to give. Don’t engage in the achievement rat race. Listen to praise from those you respect, but ignore it from those you don’t. Push back when society eggs you on. Focus on things that matter the most to you alone. Ignore fears of being an imposter — be authentic to yourself, that is enough. Keep your hands on the brakes. Enjoy your freedom of time and mind. Pursue daring thoughts when the urge strikes you. And when your heart begs pause of the world, listen.
Further Reading:
The Myth of Prodigy, and Why it Matters. Adapted from a Talk by Malcom Gladwell
There is some discussion back on Hacker News.
What are Worthwhile Problems? Advice from Richard Feynman. I mention this in particular because there’s yet another danger for the young and ambitious: falling in love with grand problems (or the idea of them) beyond one’s reach. Feynman suggests that “The worthwhile problems are the ones you can really solve or help solve, the ones you can really contribute something to. […] No problem is too small or too trivial if we can really do something about it.”
Terry Tao also describes ‘one of the hazards’ of mathematics (though this is shared by many fields), focusing prematurely on a single big problem or theory. His advice? Don’t. Try instead to be patient, and flexible. Work hard. And above all, enjoy it.
Scott Aaronson describes in It’s Science if it Bites Back a teacher amusingly similar to mine in grade seven. Both of us dropped out immediately after our fateful encounter.
Paul Graham posits in Is it Worth Being Wise? “If you feel exhausted, it’s not necessarily because there’s something wrong with you. Maybe you’re just running fast.”
Stanislav Shalunov asks “Would you work with micromanaging boss, no salary, and all your work thrown away?”
John Taylor Gatto has excellent writings on the nature of education, and is featured in a video here.
Danielle – thanks again for another great essay. As you know, in mathematics, the derivation of optimality requires both the specification of constraints and the proper selection of a Lagrange multiplier (weighting factor). It turns out that life is similar (for the prodigies, ex-prodigies as well as the non-prodigies). Happiness requires both the recognition of one’s limitation and the choice of priority. In other words, one can never be truly happy until one reaches one’s limit, and one can never be truly happy until one decides it is time to be happy. Good luck.
A wise essay. Thanks for writing it.
“Focus on things that matter the most to you alone” – Thank you for that. Brilliant article and extremely well expressed. I am no prodigy, but even then, when working into the wee hours of the morning start to wonder – am I doing this because I want to, or because it will make others respect me more?
Or in the broader scheme of life, is what I am pursuing really helping me achieve my life’s goals, or is this some short stint that will allow me to stick yet another feather in my cap? Society will push you on, and sometimes, you need a brake button not because you need to slow down, but because you want to stop and reconsider the deeper meaning of your actions.
Thank you,
Denny,
I guess that’s true. Sometimes, however, it seems that joy just strikes me.
Cheers,
My spiritual master once told us, In a rat race even if you end up winning, you are still a rat ! So choose wisely ! Cheers Sanjay
Thank you for your kind words, Michael. Praise from a writer I respect will always lighten my day. :-)
I’m glad I could help you raise these questions. It’s always important to be able to look outside ourselves. We do need perspective in our actions.
That doesn’t mean that wee hours are always bad, though. Sometimes, you have no choice. And sometimes, love wouldn’t have you any other way!
Danielle,
This really strikes a chord. Particularly your points about “imposter syndrome” and “being pushed for achievement”. I’ve entered the work force early on (at fifteen), since my “crisis” (upon entry to high school) happened to be at the same time time as the dot-com boom (and then – as now – I am living in the Silicon Valley)
I may have not done my homework, but this is first time I hear about the “imposter syndrome” and I have to say this is a very helpful paradigm for me. Often times, especially when starting new jobs, I was asking myself “is this even a real job?” or “did I just charm my way in through the interview?” and even seeing (externally) the value of my work to my employer and my ability to succeed at the job (vs. just get hired) didn’t immediately quiet this fear.
I’ve also felt the pressure from “careerist” friends/acquaintances to demand raises in terms of salary and title (or suggestions that I job hop, giving up doing what I enjoy in favour of something more grandiose-sounding).
Taking the break and relaxing really is the key here. I am very glad I took a break to attend college (after graduating high school). I am glad I am also taking time to pursue part-time graduate school (and have a personal life) versus (going the very tempting route) of starting my own business. Slowing the pace and relaxing (at certain times) can also help address the “imposter” fear by demonstrating the ability to stick with something.
Thanks for writing this,
Alex, It seems that many people have had to learn these hard lessons. I’m glad that you’ve found a comfortable and restful place, and that you no longer worry too much that your abilities might be illusions.
Thank you for contributing your story.
I feel really identified with what you have written.
For me, the experience goes like this:
You are in an constant state of flow, and you think you are not going to break – actually, you do not understand why people break, why do they need to stop, and why do they many of the things they do (the only reason could be they the do not know what to do with the seconds that have been allocated to them, and that seems really weird, considering all the things you have to do).
Sometimes you feel the need to stop…but it must be because of another things, not because you are tired (how could you be tired from something as wonderful as trying to become “the youngest smartest fastest most daring most broadly educated highest iq’d phd’d nobel prized ivy leagued quantum genius prodigy in the world ever.”?). Somehow you are able to ignore the fact that most of the really famous people in science lived pretty tragic lives, because, you know, that is not going to happen to YOU (I am beginning to thing that the real purpose of academia is that this kind of people do not feel lonely).
Until one day, all begins to be meaningless. And then the trouble begins…Eventually, it ends, and you begin to enjoy life again. You are wiser, but you are not really able to recapture the illusion. I suppose that is what is called “growing up”.
Your blog is great, by the way.
Note: This was written in a feverish state and in a foreign language.
Really interesting article. Struck a chord with me. I’m a young man, barely 19, and, among other things, have earned an AA, AS, BA, and BS and now face the choice of saying yes to various MA/JD programs… yet, a part of my soul says that the most difficult thing to do would be to take a year off to just be on pause…
Very good article, almost brought a tear to my eye. I was one of the so called ‘gifted’ and was constantly bored throughout school. Even at the University where I went at a very young age – I was getting excellent grades without trying. And I definitely felt like an impostor. Competing in my mind was the notion that I was nothing special and the notion that my abilities were going to waste doing what I was doing.
I’m glad you were able to find your niche. It was tough for me. My last year in college I was completely uninterested, could not find a job, and ended up being homeless after graduating. Only after swallowing my pride and getting a job that I initially turned down because of how not-challenging it seemed am I seeing what I’m capable of.
I’m lucky to have landed in a company that gets it, I don’t think I deserve it. I feel stupid for not seeing it before. We’re doing amazing things in the engineering world and I feel like I’m making a big impact on the world. Most importantly, I’ve learned not to measure myself against the praise that I’ve gotten used to hearing and instead focus on the task at hand.
You’re a real inspiration, Danielle! Your blog is awesome and I wish I read this article sooner.
Thank you!
Thanks for this. I was one of the so called ‘gifted’ and was constantly bored throughout school. Even at the University where I went at a very young age – I was getting excellent grades without trying. And I definitely felt like an impostor. I saw everything as simple, and competing in my mind was the notion that I was nothing special and the notion that my abilities were going to waste doing what I was doing.
I’m glad you were able to find your niche. It was tough for me. My last year in college I was completely uninterested, could not find a job, and ended up being homeless after graduating. Only after swallowing my pride and getting a job that I initially turned down because of how not-challenging it seemed am I seeing what I’m capable of.
I’m lucky to have landed in a company that gets it, I don’t think I deserve it. I feel stupid for not seeing it before. We’re doing amazing things in the engineering world and I’m making a big impact. Most importantly, I’ve learned not to measure myself against the praise that I’ve gotten used to hearing and instead focus on the task at hand.
You’re a real inspiration, Danielle! Your blog is awesome and I wish I read this article sooner.